Sunday, February 22, 2009

Our Baby

I went in on Friday for my ultrasound. I knew the minute that they showed the picture on the screen that something was wrong. Apparently, we lost our sweet little baby Tree at Week 5. I had what's known as a "missed miscarriage." Basically, my uterus is STILL producing the pregnancy hormones, despite the baby having been gone for 7 weeks. My body was still growing, still craving, and still nauseous despite our loss. This was an extremely rough weekend for the four of us, emotionally and physically for me. Jay and I are mostly in shock and trying to deal with things, Harry is upset that his baby Tree is gone, and Emma is upset because she's reading off our emotions, despite not understanding the reasons.

I ask for your prayers for our family right now. Thank you to everyone who has called or expressed their sympathy and support. I'm sorry for not being available to talk, its too difficult right now. Please pray for the 4 of us as we deal with this. 

These are My Footprints

Author Unknown

These are my footprints, so perfect and so small. These tiny footprints, never touched the ground at all.

Not one tiny footprint, for now I have my wings. These tiny footprints were meant for other things.

You will hear my tiny footprints, in the patter of the rain. Gentle drops like angels’ tears, of joy and not from pain.

You will see my tiny footprints, in each butterflies' lazy dance. I'll let you know I'm with you, if you give me just a chance.

You will see my tiny footprints, in the rustle of the leaves. I will whisper names into the wind, and call each one that grieves.

Most of all, these tiny footprints, are found in mummy's heart, cause even though I'm gone now, we'll never truly part.



Annali said...

We've never met, but we were in Mommy and Me at the same time. I just wanted to say how sorry I am that your family is going through this. We just had a missed miscarriage as well. I should have been 12 1/2 weeks and our little one stopped growing at 9 weeks. It's been a rough month, but we have gotten through it. I will be praying for you!!!

Dan and Janet Brungardt said...

Oh, I am so sorry about your little baby. I just went through the same thing. I'll be praying for you and your family. If you need any info or need to "talk" my email is danjanetbrungardt(at)yahoo(dot)com. My heart aches for you.

Tiffany said...

I'm so sorry Jenn for you and your family. I'll be thinking and praying for you all!

Rob and Michelle Aikman said...

We haven't talked in so long. We are so sorry to hear that this has happened to you all. We will pray that light will follow.
Warmest thoughts,
Rob and Michelle

Rhonda said...

I'm so sorry! That is so, so sad.

Can I use the poem? A friend of a friend just lost her baby one week before her due date. I would love to pass this on.

The Butterfields said...

Absolutely use the poem if you think it'll help. I found it on a miscarriage support website, so its open to everybody. Tell your friend she's in my prayers. I can't imagine being so close to the "finish line" and losing everything.